When the moon hits your eye like a big pie, that's I needa money. 30,000 dollars is all I need to get rid of this personal loan and then I can focus on my credit cards. Gambling not working. Stupid stupid stupid stupid. One more time and maybe this will be the one that hits. Sitting in a stupid meeting, a stupid endless meeting. Although this one can't be an email. I'm still stuck for ideas. This isn't working. My stupid Tiktok isn't working. My job isn't working. Nothing is working. Can't have even one decent day at the tables, don't have any free time for uber or doordash. Shouldn't even entertain those as options. But everything just gets worse and worse and debts just get worse and worse. $50,000. Just $50,000. Only $50,000 I swear that's all I need to get myself out of this. Really $30,000 to get the largest loan out of the way. Why did I take that out. Amex cut my credit limit anyway. They probably would have done that without my using that loan to pay the bill down last year. If I had one damn creative bone in my body anymore I'd build an app for something. Like a picture alarm clock, which I was told is not a good idea. Maybe it is. Maybe it isn't. But someone who should support my dumb ideas isn't doing it. Why is being creative so hard? Why is this so hard? Why can't I come up with a good way to make money? I suck so bad. I mean, years ago--no, who am I kidding? I would have been just as bad at this then as I am now. I am $50,000 in debt and I can't make rent, so I need to come up with a good idea and I can't think of one simple idea. Just one idea. What can I do 300 times that I can charge $100 a pop for? I already gave up on my stupid VBA youtube channel. 4 videos and nothing. Nothing nothing nothing.
Just need a mysterious benefactor to give me: